Face

I forage her face for familiarity

this ancient ancestor of mine

Searching for similarities

to push past to present

and make connection

A to Z Challenge – Reflect

REFLECT:  Go back in thought, meditate or consult with oneself.

 

I sit

And reflect on actions, comments and thoughts of the day

Which ultimately affect my life and ripple through others

Could have – should have  – did I – why?

Breathe

Stillness

Let go

Push away thoughts of today, yesterday and tomorrow

Concentrate on now

Breathe

Stillness

Let go

Warmth on my face

As sun seeps through window

Eyes closed, relax

In tune with the noise of life

Birds fluttering, chirping

Distant sound of radio chatter

Occasional car hums by

Heart beat

 

Then nothing

SiLeNcE

MotionLess

ENJOYING NOW

A to Z Challenge – Observation

OBSERVATION: Notice or being noticed, perception, faculty of taking notice

 

 

He lay there in stillness

in echo friendly casket

Arms gently folded

Hands entwined in rich red pohutakawa blossom

Wearing suit

that fitted so well at son’s wedding,

several years ago

Last worn then

now hiding thin frail human

An alter of flowers, fruit and vegetables

the rewards of years of planting, nurturing and growing

His last harvest

Outside sun shines glorious light beams

Rays of love to all

Family, friends, loved ones

Tears, laughter

Stories, emotion

Pure

He is at peace

this his  last night on earth

Farewell

 

A to Z Challenge – Neat

NEAT: brief, clear and pointed, cleverly phrased, epigrammatic, deft, dexterous, cleverly done, tidy, methodical.

 

According to http://www.urbandictionary.com

NEAT: Wonderful, terrific, cool, clean, orderly, tidy , serving a spirit straight without ice or mixer.

I wrote my first diary in 1974.  It was a small 5cm by 8.5cm  brown Holiday and Travel Book, given to me by Mum.  I was a 16-year-old New Zealander, off on a school geography trip to the Fiji Islands. The travel book was to record my trip.

The A to Z challenge prompted me to read this diary again in search for ideas for the challenge. Several things jumped out at me.

  • I have lost contact with all but I person I write about on the trip.
  • My hand writing was incredibly tidy (NEAT)
  • My group of friends were quite naughty for 70’s standards.
  • We could never replicate this trip today, Health and Safety regulations would  deem the trip to dangerous.

Two words I used frequently in this  diary  are NEAT and GEE, which  were common slang words used in the 1970’s.  Neat – this is cool and Gee Wiz –oh wow!  So I was using pretty Coo(another 70’s favourite)  words. Here are some more 1970’s slang words/phrases:    GroovY,  SToked,  Nifty,  TotalLy AwEsoMe and MaY the ForCe be wiTh You.

In my diary, everything I enjoyed doing  was “really neat”.  A bus driver was really neat, I met some really neat people. We had neat fun. The fish were neat.  Then there was GEE. Gee I felt sorry,  Gee I had fun.

The ultimate entry was – “GEE the market was NEAT!”  

I can’t say this diary was the most exciting read, however it was factual and reading it transported me back to my penultimate  year at high school, and the fantastic opportunity our Geography class had going to Fiji.   It also  reminded me of people I once knew and left me wondering what happened to them.

 

 

A to Z Challenge – Majestic

MAJESTIC:  Possessing stateliness or grandeur, imposing

 

 

Tuesday’s usual trip from the Kapiti Coast to Wellington

Takes me through familiar landmarks

which remain as constant as Tuesday follows Monday

Passing towns and suburbs

where people are going about their daily routines

Trains worming towards the big city

Cars inching forward in traffic jam

Pass Whenua Tapu cemetery

and  a keen eye notices a new monument decorated with flowers

At Paremata

 a little apprehensive

wondering if she will be there today

moored between road and rail bridges

Heading south the view between the bridges

is hampered by passing traffic, concrete walls

and walkers

NOT TO BE SEEN

So the wait begins, and as the day unfolds with regularity,

I head north for home

The motorway not so busy this time

as commuters are now parked in office buildings,

shops, universities, coffee houses

Before Paremata

I position myself for the ultimate view

I am not disappointed

I see her sat upon still water

that make the inlet

where fishers catch sprats

She is majestic

this small little boat

I smile as a drive past

KATE

 

Kate

Kate ©hk photography

A to Z Challenge – Life

LIFE:  Active part of existence, business and pleasures of the world

 

 

Playing trolley tag in the supermarket

Aisle much narrower than the norm

Harassed employee unstacks

then restacks shelves

Clutching coupons he appears agitated

Scrutinises then grabs selected product

Must be a big specials day

Shopper dithering over meat selection

all I want is the lamb shank displayed in front of her

I lean on trolley and wait my turn

Be patient

I wonder

What they are thinking

as product mechanically put in trolleys

Choices made

Would I buy that?

Checkout

Pimply faced boy starts the operation

Lamb shank scanned

Loyalty card swiped

Card inserted, pin keyed

Payment made

There done!

A to Z Challenge – Kindness

KINDNESS: There is no entry in my 1976 Concise English Dictionary. The nearest I could find was KIND.

KIND: Of gentle or benevolent nature; showing friendliness; affectionate; kind-hearted

KINDLY: Kind, kind-hearted,  pleasant, genial

http://www.oxforddictionaries.com define KINDNESS as:  The quality of being friendly, generous, and considerate:

I am overwhelmed by KINDNESS from family and friends.  After my recent diagnosis of rheumatic heart disease and impending surgery, I have witnessed what KINDNESS is.

Generosity, compassion, affection, goodness, grace

Unconditional love experienced first hand

I am humbled

Thank you to everyone who has shown me KINDNESS

I intend to pay KINDNESS forward with love

Kindness in words creates confidence. Kindness in thinking creates profoundness. Kindness in giving creates love – Lao Tzu

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

A to Z Challenge – I

I: Me, myself, the ego, subject or object of self-consciousness

 

I     AdmiRe

I      BreAtHe

I CrY                                                  I   DreAm

I     EmpaTHise                              I   FRoliC

I    GiVe                              I HOpE                                                          I    ImaGine

JouRNey

I Know                        I  LoVe                                        I      Meander

I Need

I   OverCoMe                 I        PracTice

I   QuestioN                                       I       RaDiatE

 I Sing                               I  TeACh                                                  I  UnDersTand                      

 I  Value                                        I  WriTe                             I      XoXoXoX

 I YeaRn                                                                      I     ZigZaG

                                     I  AM

 

 

 

 

 

A to Z Challenge – Emotion

EMOTION:  Disturbance of mind, mental sensation or state; instinctive feeling as opposed to reason.

 

 

I play leap frog with emotiions

My emotions

Frogs in position

me at the start line

This challenge ….not easy …. scary ….fear

Pulse quickens

Muscles twitch, I sense anxiety in my heart

Mind speak “you can do this”

Your’re not the first, you  won’t be the last

Breathe….Meditate….Believe…..Have Faith

LEAP

 

A to Z challenge – Apprentice

 

APPRENTICE:  Learner of a craft, bound to serve, and entitled to instruction, beginner, novice.

 

My 58th year as an earth bound apprentice

learning the craft of life

Hungering:

For new experiences

Unknown adventures

Realisation for dreams

Energised:

By what I have already experienced

And lessons learned

Humbled:

At the majesty, dignity and beauty of planet earth

and sacrifices made to support human life

By the generosity of friends, loved ones and strangers

Graduate:

When I leave the planet

A to Z Challenge 2016

A to Z Challenge using all the letters in the alphabet reminds of my typing class at high school.

No computers back in the 70’s just a manual type writer, with a metal cover hiding letters allowing just enough room for fingers to push keys and type.

The quick brown fox jumps of the lazy dog

This sentence used every letter in the alphabet! And we practiced, practiced and practiced.

The correct hand and finger placement for speed typing important and enforced in class. Fingers always hovering over middle row of letters; asdfghjkl

I never did master using all 8 fingers correctly, instead my fingers dance over keyboard searching for the right letter. Mistakes made, but now quickly erased  or corrected with the back space key or spell check.

The concise Oxford Dictionary of current English, 6th edition 1976 was my bible before internet and online dictionaries.  I still use my trusty dictionary, albeit less frequently.

The first entry in this dictionary is:

A, noun, plural A’s. First letter of the alphabet; (Mus.) sixth note in diatonic scale of C major; first hypothetical person or example; highest class (of road, academic marks, population as regards affluence, etc); from A to Z, over the entire range, completely; from A to B, from any place to some other place

This 1976 dictionary is where I will get my A to Z words and meanings from.

Enjoy

Sometimes

Sometimes rheumatic fever = rheumatic heart disease = heart valve damage = heart valve replacement……

I never in my most gloomy moments thought I would be inflicted with a  heart condition.

Preparing myself for double heart valve replacement, the usual doom and gloom thoughts fill the spaces in my mind  reserved for such occasions.

Why is it easier to think of the negative rather than positive?  I push and pull myself through these thoughts and try to tether myself to the positive.

The last 6 months have been filled with doctors and hospital appointments, hospital admissions and discharges, work and all the emotional stuff that reveals itself in times like this.

Holding myself in limbo I process what has unfolded and come to terms with how my life will be post surgery

Then finally  acceptance, belief and trust replace anger, blame and fear

I am ready to move into the next lane on my freeway of life and embrace all that it offers

ROAD BLOCK

That dreaded phone call, the day before surgery

Heart races, anxiety heightens

I  know the conversation

“your surgical date has been deferred”,  spoken as if doodling

I stop listening to the reasons why – everything a blur

Devastated

New date given, but be prepared for the “possibility of postponement”

Those negative emotions forced to the fore again

I am back at that place of anger and frustration

REFOCUS

Road blocks are temporary

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Nourish your Heart

5 months after diagnosis

1 month before surgery

This topsy-turvy 5 months has brought to the fore emotions hidden in dark places

Anger, shame, guilt and fear

They jack in the boxed out from the abyss so quickly, danced in frenzied style and taunted my psyche.

And  consumed my every day

Advice from a good friend

“Nourish your Heart”

Push the jack of negative emotions back into its box

Find emotions worthy of my attention

Joy, love, compassion, trust

Remove fear

Only then can I

Nourish my heart

 

 

 

 

Me

Take one fifty something woman

Toss in four ethnicities – Cook Island, Niuean, German and English

Add lashings of passion, poetry, sport, FAMILY, spiritualismhealth and wellbeing, PHOTOGRAPHY, craft  and travel.

Combine with oodles of thought, questions, ideas and reflection

Mix well together.

This is a blog for musings about my life and experiences on planet earth, a place for poetry, writing and photography.

Enjoy my take on life.

Side Swiped

She was manic, busy and energetic – clearly loving her work.  Her time running out and my appointment at least 30 minutes late.

I sat there feeling guilty for wasting precious time of this very busy woman.

Trying to access my files on her computer

Asking a colleague for help  to make my documents visible and finally achieving it.

A pause  from her suggested something may be up, but she had her game face on, and no emotion showed – a good sign I thought.

Her questions, my answers all appeared to tick the “you are healthy” box.

“So lets check that echocardiogram” she said.

Alone I sat in the  room with examination bed and curtain at one end.  Messy desk  topped with artificial hearts, papers, stethoscope and cup of tea at the other end.  Cream walls.

Waiting seemed like forever – I practiced my apology for wasting her time

The door flew open and the words “you are in serious trouble” spilled out, followed by “you have severe heart disease”.  She loomed over me explaining exactly what she had seen on the echocardiogram, but I heard nothing.  Those words “severe heart disease” echoing inside my brain.

What! When? How? Why?  Visibly shocked.

I am a fitness instructor, how could  this be. I cycle, run, exercise for leisure and for occupation.

“Did you have rheumatic fever when you were young” she asked.  “I have no idea” I mumbled

Diagnosis – Rheumatic Heart Disease

Within an hour, I was a patient.  I work with patients.

Within an hour, I was prescribed medication.  I never take pills.

Within an hour,  my life changed.

Three words side swiped me – Disease, Patient, Medication

Prepare for valve replacement surgery

After paying for the consultation, I sat in my car feeling totally alone

How do I tell my family?

 

 

 

 

Short Story

Early for me, but not others

as I pedal my 30km circuit

watching the action unfolding for a new day

Sun just starting to warm the day, but cold air hits hard as head wind tests my stamina.

Sand rustled up by wind catches my breath and salt from wave spray stings my eyes.

Seagulls fight over dead fish washed up on beach, a gift from the ocean

People on the hunt for the best coffee house

Where coffee is the stimulus for conversation

Some absorb daily newspaper – mostly bad news

I am moving at supersonic speed, in my head

Realistically a slow pace hard up against that unforgiving head wind

I look forward to the turn round, where the wind becomes my ally and gifts me a quick return home.

 

 

Let the scene write itself

Mangaia

Draped in light caught through Ironwood trees

Branches hang limply, long needles entangled

and some fall to shield earth

A soft hue meanders over church of old

Monuments to the dead scatter surrounding edges

Looking further back to what remain

of traditions long gone

Rubble reminds me of past ceremonies

where descendants once gathered

A bone of an ancestor lies abandoned

caught between the then and now

Apprehension grabs my solar plexus

As I wonder who this bone was?

One-Word Inspiration

Dreaming of all that is possible and impossible

Feeling indestructible 

Learning, Living, Loving

Flirting with the zest of life

Teasing imagination in ways that seduce the mind

Exploring flavours taste buds have yet to experience

Feeling apprehensive and scared, at the same time excited and giggly

Butterflies dance in solar plexus

Looking to the stars, seeing the past light up the sky

A kaleidoscope of yesterday bursting into life

A colour explosion

I am 20 again, adventurous and seeing the world through eyes of HOPE