A to Z Challenge – Reflect

REFLECT:  Go back in thought, meditate or consult with oneself.

 

I sit

And reflect on actions, comments and thoughts of the day

Which ultimately affect my life and ripple through others

Could have – should have  – did I – why?

Breathe

Stillness

Let go

Push away thoughts of today, yesterday and tomorrow

Concentrate on now

Breathe

Stillness

Let go

Warmth on my face

As sun seeps through window

Eyes closed, relax

In tune with the noise of life

Birds fluttering, chirping

Distant sound of radio chatter

Occasional car hums by

Heart beat

 

Then nothing

SiLeNcE

MotionLess

ENJOYING NOW

A to Z Challenge – Neat

NEAT: brief, clear and pointed, cleverly phrased, epigrammatic, deft, dexterous, cleverly done, tidy, methodical.

 

According to http://www.urbandictionary.com

NEAT: Wonderful, terrific, cool, clean, orderly, tidy , serving a spirit straight without ice or mixer.

I wrote my first diary in 1974.  It was a small 5cm by 8.5cm  brown Holiday and Travel Book, given to me by Mum.  I was a 16-year-old New Zealander, off on a school geography trip to the Fiji Islands. The travel book was to record my trip.

The A to Z challenge prompted me to read this diary again in search for ideas for the challenge. Several things jumped out at me.

  • I have lost contact with all but I person I write about on the trip.
  • My hand writing was incredibly tidy (NEAT)
  • My group of friends were quite naughty for 70’s standards.
  • We could never replicate this trip today, Health and Safety regulations would  deem the trip to dangerous.

Two words I used frequently in this  diary  are NEAT and GEE, which  were common slang words used in the 1970’s.  Neat – this is cool and Gee Wiz –oh wow!  So I was using pretty Coo(another 70’s favourite)  words. Here are some more 1970’s slang words/phrases:    GroovY,  SToked,  Nifty,  TotalLy AwEsoMe and MaY the ForCe be wiTh You.

In my diary, everything I enjoyed doing  was “really neat”.  A bus driver was really neat, I met some really neat people. We had neat fun. The fish were neat.  Then there was GEE. Gee I felt sorry,  Gee I had fun.

The ultimate entry was – “GEE the market was NEAT!”  

I can’t say this diary was the most exciting read, however it was factual and reading it transported me back to my penultimate  year at high school, and the fantastic opportunity our Geography class had going to Fiji.   It also  reminded me of people I once knew and left me wondering what happened to them.

 

 

A to Z Challenge – Life

LIFE:  Active part of existence, business and pleasures of the world

 

 

Playing trolley tag in the supermarket

Aisle much narrower than the norm

Harassed employee unstacks

then restacks shelves

Clutching coupons he appears agitated

Scrutinises then grabs selected product

Must be a big specials day

Shopper dithering over meat selection

all I want is the lamb shank displayed in front of her

I lean on trolley and wait my turn

Be patient

I wonder

What they are thinking

as product mechanically put in trolleys

Choices made

Would I buy that?

Checkout

Pimply faced boy starts the operation

Lamb shank scanned

Loyalty card swiped

Card inserted, pin keyed

Payment made

There done!

A to Z Challenge – Jim Jams

JIM JAMS: Delirium tremens; fit of depression or nervousness

Delirium tremens: a severe psychotic condition occurring in some persons with chronic alcoholism, characterized by delirium, tremor, anxiety, and vivid hallucinations

 

Stop!  I thought jim jams were pj’s, pyjamas, sleep wear.

This is when my trusty dictionary is replaced by Google.  So what does google say:

Colins Online Dictionary:

  1. a slang word for delirium tremens
  2. a state of nervous tension, excitement, or anxiety
  3. (informal) pyjamas

So how did pyjamas morf into jim jams?

 

A to Z Challenge – Gift

GIFT: Thing given, present, donation, virtue looked upon as emanation from heaven, natural endowment

 

 

BLOOD DAY

Always the thought that on the day

my GIFT of blood will not be required

Iron level must be above 120

This is a good day, level 125

I can gift blood

My 10th donation – later to find out my last

GIFTED back a T-shirt “Save Lives, Give Blood”, drink bottle and pen

As a thank you

 

Making fist and squeezing repetitively

to ensure perfect flow

Reading book nonchalantly

as pump works to fill bag

then

Blood packaged, labelled and stored

 

Forced recovery

Warm milky instant coffee in paper cup

served by volunteer

Cream cracker with marmite and slice of cheese

or plain sweet biscuit

Conversation with familiar donor

My last donation…..

 

 

 

A to Z Challenge – Emotion

EMOTION:  Disturbance of mind, mental sensation or state; instinctive feeling as opposed to reason.

 

 

I play leap frog with emotiions

My emotions

Frogs in position

me at the start line

This challenge ….not easy …. scary ….fear

Pulse quickens

Muscles twitch, I sense anxiety in my heart

Mind speak “you can do this”

Your’re not the first, you  won’t be the last

Breathe….Meditate….Believe…..Have Faith

LEAP

 

A to Z Challenge – Dilemma

DILEMMA: Argument forcing opponent to choose one of two alternatives both unfavourable to him; position that leaves only a choice between equally unwelcome possibilities. 

I was perplexed after reading the meaning from my 1976 dictionary, as this was not my understanding of Dilemma.  I get the bit where one has to choose, but the unfavourable or equally unwelcome possibilities got me.  Could you not have a dilemma over favourable or equally welcome choices?  Or is there another word for that state of mind?   I checked  online dictionaries and there are no positive dilemma’s.

Synonyms for Dilemma such as predicament, quandary, perplexed, conundrum and muddle, conjure up unfavourable possibilities for me.

So here’s a DilemMa

Must I stop thinking that making a choice between a  delicious slice of carrot cake or an exquisite chocolate brownie a DilemMa, because both are favourable  and equally most welcome to me!

 

 

 

 

A to Z Challenge – Cake

CAKE: Sweet unleavened bread with other ingredients besides flour, e.g currants, spice, eggs, sugar.

Hmmm…  this definition of cake from my 1976 dictionary doesn’t really tempt my taste buds.  So online I went and found  the following.

cake. (n.d.). Dictionary.com Unabridged. Retrieved March 27, 2016 from  http://www.dictionary.com/browse/cake

  • a sweet, baked, bread like food, made with or without shortening, and usually containing flour, sugar, baking powder or soda, eggs, and liquid flavoring.
  • a flat, thin mass of bread, especially unleavened bread.
  • a shaped or molded mass of other food: a fish cake
  • a shaped or compressed mass:  a cake of soap; a cake of ice

What do you think – still not what cake means to you?

In 1976, the same year as the edition of my trusty dictionary, I lived in Fallbrook California as an exchange student.  Class of ’76 at Fallbrook High School if any of you are reading this.   I discovered Carrot Cake and OMG – it was delectable. Before arriving in Fallbrook,  I was oblivious to cake made from carrots – we used bananas. The good old ever dependable banana cake graced tables at most functions I went to back in New Zealand. Then I discovered Carrot Cake and Combined with Cream Cheese icing sent my taste buds into Cosmic overdrive.

This cake is now one of my heirloom recipes and 40 years on, it is still a favorite birthday cake for family and friends.  I share this recipe with love.

 “14 Carrot Cake

♥ Beat – 2 cups of sugar, 1.5 cups oil (I use canola), 3 eggs

♥ Add (sifted) – 3 cups flour, 1 teaspoon each of baking powder & baking soda, 1 tablespoon cinnamon and pinch of salt.

♥ Stir in  – 3 cups grated carrots, 450grm tin crushed pineapple & juice, 2 teaspoons vanilla, 1 cup nuts (optional).

Grease and flour (or use baking paper) 9 inch/22cm tin and bake 40 – 50 mins at 325F/160C.

♥ Frosting:  1/2 packet cream cheese,2 tablespoons butter, 1 cup icing sugar, vanilla essence.  Mix together on ice cake when cold. (I double the recipe to ensure a thick layer all over the cake, and yes enough to lick the spoon as well ♥

Enjoy – I dare you to try this recipe and tell me what you think.   Also,  if you know the original creator of this delicious CAKE, please tell me so I can attribute the recipe to them.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

A to Z challenge – Apprentice

 

APPRENTICE:  Learner of a craft, bound to serve, and entitled to instruction, beginner, novice.

 

My 58th year as an earth bound apprentice

learning the craft of life

Hungering:

For new experiences

Unknown adventures

Realisation for dreams

Energised:

By what I have already experienced

And lessons learned

Humbled:

At the majesty, dignity and beauty of planet earth

and sacrifices made to support human life

By the generosity of friends, loved ones and strangers

Graduate:

When I leave the planet

A to Z Challenge 2016

A to Z Challenge using all the letters in the alphabet reminds of my typing class at high school.

No computers back in the 70’s just a manual type writer, with a metal cover hiding letters allowing just enough room for fingers to push keys and type.

The quick brown fox jumps of the lazy dog

This sentence used every letter in the alphabet! And we practiced, practiced and practiced.

The correct hand and finger placement for speed typing important and enforced in class. Fingers always hovering over middle row of letters; asdfghjkl

I never did master using all 8 fingers correctly, instead my fingers dance over keyboard searching for the right letter. Mistakes made, but now quickly erased  or corrected with the back space key or spell check.

The concise Oxford Dictionary of current English, 6th edition 1976 was my bible before internet and online dictionaries.  I still use my trusty dictionary, albeit less frequently.

The first entry in this dictionary is:

A, noun, plural A’s. First letter of the alphabet; (Mus.) sixth note in diatonic scale of C major; first hypothetical person or example; highest class (of road, academic marks, population as regards affluence, etc); from A to Z, over the entire range, completely; from A to B, from any place to some other place

This 1976 dictionary is where I will get my A to Z words and meanings from.

Enjoy

Sometimes

Sometimes rheumatic fever = rheumatic heart disease = heart valve damage = heart valve replacement……

I never in my most gloomy moments thought I would be inflicted with a  heart condition.

Preparing myself for double heart valve replacement, the usual doom and gloom thoughts fill the spaces in my mind  reserved for such occasions.

Why is it easier to think of the negative rather than positive?  I push and pull myself through these thoughts and try to tether myself to the positive.

The last 6 months have been filled with doctors and hospital appointments, hospital admissions and discharges, work and all the emotional stuff that reveals itself in times like this.

Holding myself in limbo I process what has unfolded and come to terms with how my life will be post surgery

Then finally  acceptance, belief and trust replace anger, blame and fear

I am ready to move into the next lane on my freeway of life and embrace all that it offers

ROAD BLOCK

That dreaded phone call, the day before surgery

Heart races, anxiety heightens

I  know the conversation

“your surgical date has been deferred”,  spoken as if doodling

I stop listening to the reasons why – everything a blur

Devastated

New date given, but be prepared for the “possibility of postponement”

Those negative emotions forced to the fore again

I am back at that place of anger and frustration

REFOCUS

Road blocks are temporary

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Nourish your Heart

5 months after diagnosis

1 month before surgery

This topsy-turvy 5 months has brought to the fore emotions hidden in dark places

Anger, shame, guilt and fear

They jack in the boxed out from the abyss so quickly, danced in frenzied style and taunted my psyche.

And  consumed my every day

Advice from a good friend

“Nourish your Heart”

Push the jack of negative emotions back into its box

Find emotions worthy of my attention

Joy, love, compassion, trust

Remove fear

Only then can I

Nourish my heart

 

 

 

 

Me

Take one fifty something woman

Toss in four ethnicities – Cook Island, Niuean, German and English

Add lashings of passion, poetry, sport, FAMILY, spiritualismhealth and wellbeing, PHOTOGRAPHY, craft  and travel.

Combine with oodles of thought, questions, ideas and reflection

Mix well together.

This is a blog for musings about my life and experiences on planet earth, a place for poetry, writing and photography.

Enjoy my take on life.

One-Word Inspiration

Dreaming of all that is possible and impossible

Feeling indestructible 

Learning, Living, Loving

Flirting with the zest of life

Teasing imagination in ways that seduce the mind

Exploring flavours taste buds have yet to experience

Feeling apprehensive and scared, at the same time excited and giggly

Butterflies dance in solar plexus

Looking to the stars, seeing the past light up the sky

A kaleidoscope of yesterday bursting into life

A colour explosion

I am 20 again, adventurous and seeing the world through eyes of HOPE