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An early morning gift from nature
Gives me hope for planet earth
©hk photography
An early morning gift from nature
Gives me hope for planet earth
If I could travel to the future
and see yesterday
which is today
Would I like what I see?
Would I change anything
if there was a choice?
REFLECT: Go back in thought, meditate or consult with oneself.
I sit
And reflect on actions, comments and thoughts of the day
Which ultimately affect my life and ripple through others
Could have – should have – did I – why?
Breathe
Stillness
Let go
Push away thoughts of today, yesterday and tomorrow
Concentrate on now
Breathe
Stillness
Let go
Warmth on my face
As sun seeps through window
Eyes closed, relax
In tune with the noise of life
Birds fluttering, chirping
Distant sound of radio chatter
Occasional car hums by
Heart beat
Then nothing
SiLeNcE
MotionLess
ENJOYING NOW
NEAT: brief, clear and pointed, cleverly phrased, epigrammatic, deft, dexterous, cleverly done, tidy, methodical.
According to http://www.urbandictionary.com
NEAT: Wonderful, terrific, cool, clean, orderly, tidy , serving a spirit straight without ice or mixer.
I wrote my first diary in 1974. It was a small 5cm by 8.5cm brown Holiday and Travel Book, given to me by Mum. I was a 16-year-old New Zealander, off on a school geography trip to the Fiji Islands. The travel book was to record my trip.
The A to Z challenge prompted me to read this diary again in search for ideas for the challenge. Several things jumped out at me.
Two words I used frequently in this diary are NEAT and GEE, which were common slang words used in the 1970’s. Neat – this is cool and Gee Wiz –oh wow! So I was using pretty CooL (another 70’s favourite) words. Here are some more 1970’s slang words/phrases: GroovY, SToked, Nifty, TotalLy AwEsoMe and MaY the ForCe be wiTh You.
In my diary, everything I enjoyed doing was “really neat”. A bus driver was really neat, I met some really neat people. We had neat fun. The fish were neat. Then there was GEE. Gee I felt sorry, Gee I had fun.
The ultimate entry was – “GEE the market was NEAT!”
I can’t say this diary was the most exciting read, however it was factual and reading it transported me back to my penultimate year at high school, and the fantastic opportunity our Geography class had going to Fiji. It also reminded me of people I once knew and left me wondering what happened to them.
LIFE: Active part of existence, business and pleasures of the world
Playing trolley tag in the supermarket
Aisle much narrower than the norm
Harassed employee unstacks
then restacks shelves
Clutching coupons he appears agitated
Scrutinises then grabs selected product
Must be a big specials day
Shopper dithering over meat selection
all I want is the lamb shank displayed in front of her
I lean on trolley and wait my turn
Be patient
I wonder
What they are thinking
as product mechanically put in trolleys
Choices made
Would I buy that?
Checkout
Pimply faced boy starts the operation
Lamb shank scanned
Loyalty card swiped
Card inserted, pin keyed
Payment made
There done!
JIM JAMS: Delirium tremens; fit of depression or nervousness
Delirium tremens: a severe psychotic condition occurring in some persons with chronic alcoholism, characterized by delirium, tremor, anxiety, and vivid hallucinations
Stop! I thought jim jams were pj’s, pyjamas, sleep wear.
This is when my trusty dictionary is replaced by Google. So what does google say:
Colins Online Dictionary:
So how did pyjamas morf into jim jams?
GIFT: Thing given, present, donation, virtue looked upon as emanation from heaven, natural endowment
BLOOD DAY
Always the thought that on the day
my GIFT of blood will not be required
Iron level must be above 120
This is a good day, level 125
I can gift blood
My 10th donation – later to find out my last
GIFTED back a T-shirt “Save Lives, Give Blood”, drink bottle and pen
As a thank you
Making fist and squeezing repetitively
to ensure perfect flow
Reading book nonchalantly
as pump works to fill bag
then
Blood packaged, labelled and stored
Forced recovery
Warm milky instant coffee in paper cup
served by volunteer
Cream cracker with marmite and slice of cheese
or plain sweet biscuit
Conversation with familiar donor
My last donation…..
FOOTPRINT: impression left by foot.
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EMOTION: Disturbance of mind, mental sensation or state; instinctive feeling as opposed to reason.
I play leap frog with emotiions
My emotions
Frogs in position
me at the start line
This challenge ….not easy …. scary ….fear
Pulse quickens
Muscles twitch, I sense anxiety in my heart
Mind speak “you can do this”
Your’re not the first, you won’t be the last
Breathe….Meditate….Believe…..Have Faith
LEAP
DILEMMA: Argument forcing opponent to choose one of two alternatives both unfavourable to him; position that leaves only a choice between equally unwelcome possibilities.
I was perplexed after reading the meaning from my 1976 dictionary, as this was not my understanding of Dilemma. I get the bit where one has to choose, but the unfavourable or equally unwelcome possibilities got me. Could you not have a dilemma over favourable or equally welcome choices? Or is there another word for that state of mind? I checked online dictionaries and there are no positive dilemma’s.
Synonyms for Dilemma such as predicament, quandary, perplexed, conundrum and muddle, conjure up unfavourable possibilities for me.
So here’s a DilemMa
Must I stop thinking that making a choice between a delicious slice of carrot cake or an exquisite chocolate brownie a DilemMa, because both are favourable and equally most welcome to me!
CAKE: Sweet unleavened bread with other ingredients besides flour, e.g currants, spice, eggs, sugar.
Hmmm… this definition of cake from my 1976 dictionary doesn’t really tempt my taste buds. So online I went and found the following.
cake. (n.d.). Dictionary.com Unabridged. Retrieved March 27, 2016 from http://www.dictionary.com/browse/cake
What do you think – still not what cake means to you?
In 1976, the same year as the edition of my trusty dictionary, I lived in Fallbrook California as an exchange student. Class of ’76 at Fallbrook High School if any of you are reading this. I discovered Carrot Cake and OMG – it was delectable. Before arriving in Fallbrook, I was oblivious to cake made from carrots – we used bananas. The good old ever dependable banana cake graced tables at most functions I went to back in New Zealand. Then I discovered Carrot Cake and Combined with Cream Cheese icing sent my taste buds into Cosmic overdrive.
This cake is now one of my heirloom recipes and 40 years on, it is still a favorite birthday cake for family and friends. I share this recipe with love.
“14 Carrot Cake“
♥ Beat – 2 cups of sugar, 1.5 cups oil (I use canola), 3 eggs
♥ Add (sifted) – 3 cups flour, 1 teaspoon each of baking powder & baking soda, 1 tablespoon cinnamon and pinch of salt.
♥ Stir in – 3 cups grated carrots, 450grm tin crushed pineapple & juice, 2 teaspoons vanilla, 1 cup nuts (optional).
Grease and flour (or use baking paper) 9 inch/22cm tin and bake 40 – 50 mins at 325F/160C.
♥ Frosting: 1/2 packet cream cheese,2 tablespoons butter, 1 cup icing sugar, vanilla essence. Mix together on ice cake when cold. (I double the recipe to ensure a thick layer all over the cake, and yes enough to lick the spoon as well ♥
Enjoy – I dare you to try this recipe and tell me what you think. Also, if you know the original creator of this delicious CAKE, please tell me so I can attribute the recipe to them.
APPRENTICE: Learner of a craft, bound to serve, and entitled to instruction, beginner, novice.
My 58th year as an earth bound apprentice
learning the craft of life
Hungering:
For new experiences
Unknown adventures
Realisation for dreams
Energised:
By what I have already experienced
And lessons learned
Humbled:
At the majesty, dignity and beauty of planet earth
and sacrifices made to support human life
By the generosity of friends, loved ones and strangers
Graduate:
When I leave the planet
A to Z Challenge using all the letters in the alphabet reminds of my typing class at high school.
No computers back in the 70’s just a manual type writer, with a metal cover hiding letters allowing just enough room for fingers to push keys and type.
The quick brown fox jumps of the lazy dog
This sentence used every letter in the alphabet! And we practiced, practiced and practiced.
The correct hand and finger placement for speed typing important and enforced in class. Fingers always hovering over middle row of letters; asdfghjkl
I never did master using all 8 fingers correctly, instead my fingers dance over keyboard searching for the right letter. Mistakes made, but now quickly erased or corrected with the back space key or spell check.
The concise Oxford Dictionary of current English, 6th edition 1976 was my bible before internet and online dictionaries. I still use my trusty dictionary, albeit less frequently.
The first entry in this dictionary is:
A, noun, plural A’s. First letter of the alphabet; (Mus.) sixth note in diatonic scale of C major; first hypothetical person or example; highest class (of road, academic marks, population as regards affluence, etc); from A to Z, over the entire range, completely; from A to B, from any place to some other place
This 1976 dictionary is where I will get my A to Z words and meanings from.
Enjoy
Sometimes rheumatic fever = rheumatic heart disease = heart valve damage = heart valve replacement……
I never in my most gloomy moments thought I would be inflicted with a heart condition.
Preparing myself for double heart valve replacement, the usual doom and gloom thoughts fill the spaces in my mind reserved for such occasions.
Why is it easier to think of the negative rather than positive? I push and pull myself through these thoughts and try to tether myself to the positive.
The last 6 months have been filled with doctors and hospital appointments, hospital admissions and discharges, work and all the emotional stuff that reveals itself in times like this.
Holding myself in limbo I process what has unfolded and come to terms with how my life will be post surgery
Then finally acceptance, belief and trust replace anger, blame and fear
I am ready to move into the next lane on my freeway of life and embrace all that it offers
ROAD BLOCK
That dreaded phone call, the day before surgery
Heart races, anxiety heightens
I know the conversation
“your surgical date has been deferred”, spoken as if doodling
I stop listening to the reasons why – everything a blur
Devastated
New date given, but be prepared for the “possibility of postponement”
Those negative emotions forced to the fore again
I am back at that place of anger and frustration
REFOCUS
Road blocks are temporary
5 months after diagnosis
1 month before surgery
This topsy-turvy 5 months has brought to the fore emotions hidden in dark places
Anger, shame, guilt and fear
They jack in the boxed out from the abyss so quickly, danced in frenzied style and taunted my psyche.
And consumed my every day
Advice from a good friend
“Nourish your Heart”
Push the jack of negative emotions back into its box
Find emotions worthy of my attention
Joy, love, compassion, trust
Remove fear
Only then can I
Nourish my heart
Take one fifty something woman
Toss in four ethnicities – Cook Island, Niuean, German and English
Add lashings of passion, poetry, sport, FAMILY, spiritualism, health and wellbeing, PHOTOGRAPHY, craft and travel.
Combine with oodles of thought, questions, ideas and reflection
Mix well together.
This is a blog for musings about my life and experiences on planet earth, a place for poetry, writing and photography.
Enjoy my take on life.
Dreaming of all that is possible and impossible
Feeling indestructible
Learning, Living, Loving
Flirting with the zest of life
Teasing imagination in ways that seduce the mind
Exploring flavours taste buds have yet to experience
Feeling apprehensive and scared, at the same time excited and giggly
Butterflies dance in solar plexus
Looking to the stars, seeing the past light up the sky
A kaleidoscope of yesterday bursting into life
A colour explosion
I am 20 again, adventurous and seeing the world through eyes of HOPE
the magic begins the moment you start being yourself
The world around through my camera's lens
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